how times have changed

I am newly pregnant and over the moon. I went through such a dark depression whist undergoing infertility treatment. - this baby has been conceived naturally and is due in June!!!!!!

Am I pregnant

I will know on December 25th, what a day to find out. technically, I could be doing early preg test, but am waiting it out. I feel certain I am pregnant, and if I am not, I may not go on with my treatments, but I prefer to think that I won't need anymore as I am pregnant.

My little guy had his school play today and he was fantastic! I used my new vicam I got myself and had such a laugh.

Oh yeah, I also got rear ended by some school kids mom, but am so chilled lately (I think it is pregnancy) that that isn't even worrying me.

I spent most of the day avoiding phone number swaps with parents, who wanted to get the kids together for playdates.
Another sad thing is my workaholic husband wasn't there and his argument would be that if he was there, we wouldn't have the money to send him to sucha great private school. (we are NOT posh or loaded, it's just that public school where we live is not an option, there is a big ganag/ gun culture).

However, at least I was there. I saw that so many kids didn't have their moms or dads there. I was kind of shocked! It was a big day for the kids. signing off now, its late and have to be up soon with babba! (I know he is 4 now, but still my babba).

These are killing me

Ok so, I am now well into my cycle, I have added Ganirelix (extra LH) as well as changing me from Follistim to menopur. I was doing ok - until my 1st garinelix injection. the area from my injection site has become red, inflamed, hot for a 5 inch daimeter. I read the side effects and this happens to 10% of people. this surprised me, I never have any side effects usually.

I gave my 2nd Ganirilex just now and thats starting to do the same. I have my TV scan and Bloods drawn tomorrow at 6.30am. they sure know how to torture us. he he he. I just had a lazy day, busy doing nothing but will head to bed soon. I spent last night sobbing watching you tube we are pregnant announcements. Not sad for me, just happy to see people so overjoyed that a babba is on it's way.

Now day 3 again........

and have been started on a honking great dose of follistim, 300iu per day to be exact. I don't know how I'm going to break it to hubster that its now $300/ day for injectables!!! They may change me to menopur but will be adding in ganirilex and the obligatory HCG and prometrium. babba not happy about pre school tomorrow, he was telling me that some kids in school don't like him, it breaks my heart that kids can say such mean things and they are only 3 and 4.

black friday

So,

I have been obsessing how I am going to buy the cheap camcorders and cheap cameras from Target in the 2 day rush (really not my style) - so spent 4 hrs researching other ones on Amazon, only to find that Target already has their electronics 2 days sale up and running already via Amazon. I am glad I looked though, as I have changed my mind from a Samsung to a Sanyo..............I think.

I need it Before little guy's birthday!

ps mother nature must be due but it is taking its sweet time, fooling me into thinking I may somehow be pregnant.

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at the dentists

had my check up, did ok, real news is that you can tell they're back!!! Steve has been vomiting already due to playing too much rough and tunmle and the walls re dirty as you like from their grubby hands. Oh well, I will go and get my magic sponge.

back with a vengance!!!!!!!!!

They have returned, the prodigal son and tehe workaholic husband. Drove to LAX and when Steve ran to me, he was choked up, minutes from crying!!!

So, he was asleep in the car in a second, up at 2am -5am, with me as his host and entertainer!! Now hes back in the land of nod. Rob and I had our first quarrel, so I know hes back as well.

on another note - earwings TRIED but failed to infest my pantry - they made a home for themselves in some cat food which is now in the trash - so close!!! - I have been sparaying the air thickly with roach spray every night and shutting the pantry door. No more signs of them.

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Its a seek and find mission, great fun to enter.

Missing them

So, I had an afternoon sleep today - I don't know what to do with myself. then, I got up, showered and went to Target at 6pm. I never do that, I'm normally getting my boy ready for bed and bathtime. They'll be back come Wednesday, so it is all ok.

Spoke to them today and they visited the London Aquarium, though babba hated the darkness of it so they didn't stay in long. They're off to the hospital (Barts) tomorrow, to take his mum, but there's no one to look after Stevie, so he'll be going as well. I'm sure he'll be ok, hes used to docs by now with me going all the time.

My best Christmas present ever

had to be in 2003, when my then fiance bought me a great hunk of a digital camera (it only died a couple of months ago) - back in the day, they were huge!!!

It was one of the best gifts I'd ever received - but however, it was succeeded by the birth of my son the next year 2004, Dec 11th!!! Just in time for a family present to us all . Boy, did that camera get some use!

ps, the fiance was my hubby by then!!!

I've entered for a chance to win a Zune at The Present Professor, http://presentprofessor.com/ you should head off there to try yourself.

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there are so msny prizes and chances for extra entires galore.

Nothing But PURPLE: Feature and Contest: Lady Lynn Boutique

Great giveaway going on at Nothing But PURPLE: Feature and Contest: Lady Lynn Boutique they have some wonderful amethyst and silver earrings!!!!

teeth out

OK - had my 4 wisdom teeth removed under local anaesthetic and it was all relatively pain free. However, what happened between the hours of midnight and two am was unbelieveable. I thought my head was going to blow off.

I eventually fell asleep from extra codeine and some other bits but boy oh boy - it was awful. Midnight is fast approaching, but I have no intention of going to bed as I think that makes me focus on the pain.

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dropped them off

Took my son and hubby to the airport, gave them a brief kiss and they were off to the scanner! I realised as i was walking to the car how devastated I would be if me and my husband were to separate. We've been through the mill lately with our treatments, its a massive stress.......

I was the one who felt like crying, my son didn't even blink. I know they're gonna have a great time (In London with family) so will se them in a week!

American heart association

HI there, if I haven't been on in a while its because I think even my second round of fertility treatments have failed. i took a test this am which was negative but period isn't due for a couple of days, so we'll see how that goes.

I went to a website today that talked about your fave charity, so I posted a link on my site ot the American heart association. - don't worry, I don't get paid for it, you can do it to at
http://www.linktoyourcharity.org/index.php and get yours. sadly, i don't know how to get the pic up full screen like its meant to.

Halloween tomorrow!

36 yrs old......yesterday it was official

The race really is on to get that bun toasting in the oven. Today, did day six of injectable meds, kind of cocked it up, but at least I can give myself tomorrows dose to be ok for mondays scan. Had by bday yesterday - nothing special, hubby got me loads of gift (mainly junk) that I just get myself anyway.
Today however, my son and Iwent to a party in a really nice part of town and we had such a great time, the family was quintessentially American and it was like something out of a movie but we loved it. My son got his hair cut by his dad today, hes looking cuter than ever, if thats possible.
His latest thing hes up to is just rambling on and on about nothing in particular - hilarious. He had such a good time today, they had expansive lawns and grounds so he was just having a great time wandering/ digging/ raking. It was fantastic. I truly have met some wonderful people here in the US.
have been pigging out for 2 whole days now - have no idea how much I'm weighing but don't want to get on those scales, thats for sure.

bday tomorrow

So, I am from England but how quickly people back home forget.
I got birthday flowers exactly a week early on the 12th, got a pal ringing from london today sing happy bday like a fruitcake and another couple of ecards all on the wrong days! - I'm not ungrateful, don't get me wrong but these are the people that once knew what time of day I was born!!! (we were all into astrology)

Preparing for a disastrous day tomorrow as my hubby is crap at gift buying and food buying and I have ANOTHER trans vaginal scan and more bloods and more injections ad nauseum..................................if only I got paid every time I had something done to me.............Also, heard from the dentist today that I will need all 4 wisdon teeth removed. I am like, when can I fit that in exactly?????

On my Fertility meds

Okay - finally here, infact I have just had my third dose of follistim. I must check the side effects again because 1. snapped at a pal today, 2. snapped at my hubby today (noithing new) 3. snapped at my son just now for throwing a magnet in my face. I would have normally said, please don't do that, it's not very nice. Instead, i went silent and sulked!!! - so funny.

Has more bloodwork today, got out of seeing doc tomorrow but will be re scanned and more bloods on friday (my bday). Hurrah.

saw Chucky from intervention in my local Ralphs the other day - good luck to him.

Fertility Treatments

this is random, I don't think anyone reads it anyway, so I feel comfy here - a bit like a journal.

I HATE MY HUSBAND and am doing fertility next week/ month - don't know if its just my pms before I take my injectable meds that make me even crazier. _ But I am so desperate for a baby I continue in this relationship. Why??? - According to Suze Orman's book - as a SAHM I may have feelings of low self worth and due to the fact I am financially dependent on him, I can't really leave and to be fair, my life is good - just not when I'm with him.

and - whats the deal on fertility forums - everyone calls their other half - my darling hubby, my best friend - they can't be on the same drugs as me. I even felt frustrated with my son tonight at bed time and I know its because he was moaning and he reminded me of.........darling hubby!!!!!!!

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!

ps

forget to say that I thought that I'd celebrate my $8.99 win ($10.99 with postage) with a trip to Chuckee Cheese with my son. Bang goes any money I'd hoped to save this week and bang goes my diet. I watched Suze Orman on TV last night declaring her love for her junk in her trunk. I wish I could afford therapy to come to terms with mine....................

I'm a winner

So, after I decided to start doing competitions it basically fell off quite soon, but I had entered maybe 12 or 13. To be honest, a lot of the competitions are quite specific and often not relevant to me, so I knew what to enter quite easily.

Basically, today I got an email saying I'd won something. I am a winner.!!! - I've won a Disney Overay card, I won through another blog. So, I am here to say that entry comps can make you a winner, somehow, I thought it was all fixed. This is my first ever win.

215.8lbs

at least I think thats how much I weigh. I may tun this into a weight loss blog, as there are som many on here.

anyway, yesterdays observation is that I was in an indoor play ground and saw a pregnant mom holding a big baby doll. - On further inspection and questioning, she was carrying around the life sized baby so that when the nbaby came, her daughter would not be too shocked that her mom has to lug a baby around!!! - can you imagine. Well, it turned out it was her idea, she hadn't read it anywhere and she hadn't been told to do it.

I start my fertility treatments next month, and on second thoughts may be its a good idea. Lets just home its not twins or more....................

competitions

Have mainly started this blog because I have been entering a lot of comps - times are tough ladies and need to have a blog space on which to do postings and get extra entries. However, it won't be dull - I have a lot to say.