36 yrs old......yesterday it was official

The race really is on to get that bun toasting in the oven. Today, did day six of injectable meds, kind of cocked it up, but at least I can give myself tomorrows dose to be ok for mondays scan. Had by bday yesterday - nothing special, hubby got me loads of gift (mainly junk) that I just get myself anyway.
Today however, my son and Iwent to a party in a really nice part of town and we had such a great time, the family was quintessentially American and it was like something out of a movie but we loved it. My son got his hair cut by his dad today, hes looking cuter than ever, if thats possible.
His latest thing hes up to is just rambling on and on about nothing in particular - hilarious. He had such a good time today, they had expansive lawns and grounds so he was just having a great time wandering/ digging/ raking. It was fantastic. I truly have met some wonderful people here in the US.
have been pigging out for 2 whole days now - have no idea how much I'm weighing but don't want to get on those scales, thats for sure.

bday tomorrow

So, I am from England but how quickly people back home forget.
I got birthday flowers exactly a week early on the 12th, got a pal ringing from london today sing happy bday like a fruitcake and another couple of ecards all on the wrong days! - I'm not ungrateful, don't get me wrong but these are the people that once knew what time of day I was born!!! (we were all into astrology)

Preparing for a disastrous day tomorrow as my hubby is crap at gift buying and food buying and I have ANOTHER trans vaginal scan and more bloods and more injections ad nauseum..................................if only I got paid every time I had something done to me.............Also, heard from the dentist today that I will need all 4 wisdon teeth removed. I am like, when can I fit that in exactly?????

On my Fertility meds

Okay - finally here, infact I have just had my third dose of follistim. I must check the side effects again because 1. snapped at a pal today, 2. snapped at my hubby today (noithing new) 3. snapped at my son just now for throwing a magnet in my face. I would have normally said, please don't do that, it's not very nice. Instead, i went silent and sulked!!! - so funny.

Has more bloodwork today, got out of seeing doc tomorrow but will be re scanned and more bloods on friday (my bday). Hurrah.

saw Chucky from intervention in my local Ralphs the other day - good luck to him.

Fertility Treatments

this is random, I don't think anyone reads it anyway, so I feel comfy here - a bit like a journal.

I HATE MY HUSBAND and am doing fertility next week/ month - don't know if its just my pms before I take my injectable meds that make me even crazier. _ But I am so desperate for a baby I continue in this relationship. Why??? - According to Suze Orman's book - as a SAHM I may have feelings of low self worth and due to the fact I am financially dependent on him, I can't really leave and to be fair, my life is good - just not when I'm with him.

and - whats the deal on fertility forums - everyone calls their other half - my darling hubby, my best friend - they can't be on the same drugs as me. I even felt frustrated with my son tonight at bed time and I know its because he was moaning and he reminded me of.........darling hubby!!!!!!!

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!

ps

forget to say that I thought that I'd celebrate my $8.99 win ($10.99 with postage) with a trip to Chuckee Cheese with my son. Bang goes any money I'd hoped to save this week and bang goes my diet. I watched Suze Orman on TV last night declaring her love for her junk in her trunk. I wish I could afford therapy to come to terms with mine....................

I'm a winner

So, after I decided to start doing competitions it basically fell off quite soon, but I had entered maybe 12 or 13. To be honest, a lot of the competitions are quite specific and often not relevant to me, so I knew what to enter quite easily.

Basically, today I got an email saying I'd won something. I am a winner.!!! - I've won a Disney Overay card, I won through another blog. So, I am here to say that entry comps can make you a winner, somehow, I thought it was all fixed. This is my first ever win.

215.8lbs

at least I think thats how much I weigh. I may tun this into a weight loss blog, as there are som many on here.

anyway, yesterdays observation is that I was in an indoor play ground and saw a pregnant mom holding a big baby doll. - On further inspection and questioning, she was carrying around the life sized baby so that when the nbaby came, her daughter would not be too shocked that her mom has to lug a baby around!!! - can you imagine. Well, it turned out it was her idea, she hadn't read it anywhere and she hadn't been told to do it.

I start my fertility treatments next month, and on second thoughts may be its a good idea. Lets just home its not twins or more....................

competitions

Have mainly started this blog because I have been entering a lot of comps - times are tough ladies and need to have a blog space on which to do postings and get extra entries. However, it won't be dull - I have a lot to say.